- -My little beautiful world- -

Falling in love with you

2012-02-01T11:26:00.003+08:00

Falling in love with you was ever the sweetest thing in my life.
The first moment was never a pleasant one. It was an awkward and weird conversation we both had and there was a slight sort of dislike.
The second moment was a chatty one. We realized we had a lot of common topics as we both came from the same school. He was my senior.
The third moment was a sweet one. The gesture of giving me me 2 full cups of ice water after we had a strong drink.
The final moment was a jealousy one. We realized that we care for each other unknowingly.

Love is ironic.
The unexpected would always happen without us expecting it.

Love is unrealistic.
The dream of falling in love with the person who you love compared to falling for a person who loves you the most.

Love is real.
It is the process of falling in and out till you finally realized what is the right one.

Love is teary.
The sadness and hurtful words we had share and had been through.

Love is joy.
The moment when you realized that happiness was to fall in love with you.

Love isn't a best friend but it will come gradually as you are willing to open your heart. It causes pain in the beginning but gives you happiness in the end. (sometimes, it isn't that perfect) The chinese proverb of "working hard before enjoying the sweetness." Lets hope that everyone will find their special one no matter how much ups and downs you guys have to go through before enjoying the blissful moments of each other. The initial stage indeed is horrible when you are learning to fine tune and adapt but it is the process that made us a better person to ourselves and to others.

Love is everywhere.

Genting Trip on 9 December 2011

2011-12-19T14:17:00.005+08:00

Genting trip with secondary school friends was great getaway from the city life.
The weather was cooler over there and with twice as much spending power we had compared to our own country.
The trip there was around 5-6 hours and most of us slept the way through. It was the first time the five of us traveled out together, most importantly its the first time going out with my darling xuan. (she's is going to be so touched when she read this)

We woke up, hearing lots of noise and seeing people carrying their luggage down the bus. "Have we reached?" The next moment when we were more awake with a clearer mind, "yes, we had reached!" We walked down wearing leggings and a pullover, with a gentle breeze of the wind, we were freezing. Our legs were shaking tremendously hoping to walk faster into the building.

We met up kelvin and friends over at the lobby and we went for breakfast. In order to kill time efficiently till the shops are open, the guys decided to go over to the casino to play around. The place was full of cigarette smell and it was affecting my nose, making it drip. Darling and me were sitting over at one of the jackpot seats and we started playing while waiting for the rest to be done. Unexpectedly, we were winning and it seems to be more and more. We were afraid that if we kept on playing, we might lose so we decide to hold on while waiting to get the card to convert our winnings into cash.

The little winnings made us happy so we treat the guys for Starbucks. We sat down thinking what is our next plan for the day. The guys wanted to go to the theme park which is what i fear deeply. The time when i was at korea, that really gave me a big scare as i fall 70 degrees down the slope. "do you think you even have a choice?" I was prompt and i know i don't.

The small rides were fine but not the roller coaster with the turns and falls that will make my heart drop till i can't feel myself. Since my darling was so daring to take the rides for the first time, i simply have to go with her. Besides that, kelvin was there to give me a push (shall i say force) to take the rides. I was thankful in the end as i do agree that if i don't, i'm going to regret. Even though the case, that doesn't mean that i will take the ride that bring me all the way up and dropped me all the way down.

The fun did not end when we planned to go for the haunted house walk. It was already pre-planned much earlier even before going for the trip. My remembrance of the haunted house was much simpler compared to the current one which indeed freak me out during the walk. The moment that we have to take the escalator up to the designated entrance, we were all preparing ourselves. All i remembered was the screaming, shouting and tearing. It was fun caused they put in a lot of effort in paving the way, the horrifying figures, the holes in the walls that make them to walk around easily from one place to the other. Indeed, there were lots of unexpected things It is definitely worth the tears. I would definitely go there again if i have the chance.

The fun ended when we realized that we have to head home. The precious time spend with all my lovely friends and my DARLING xuan will always be in my heart.

Night at Yellow Jello

2011-12-09T09:28:00.007+08:00

Yellow Jello is one of my favorite chill out place. Initially i thought it was a bore as the name sound a little retro-like but i was wrong. From a far distance, I heard the band playing and i told myself, "This is going to be the one." Although we were also looking around to see if there are any more choices than the usual selective hang out place but none captured our attention.

The first drink was at Iguana Cafe; Lime Martini & Pink Guava Martini. I always love to dine over here. I enjoy eating Mexican dishes especially the taco/nacho chips with tomato based home-made sauce. The atmosphere and scenic view around was so dreamy and pretty with colored lights. Near the grass patch, there would be people flying lighted kites which made the sky looks so filled with images.

The second drink was at yellow jello; Volka Orange & Absolute Peach with Lime. These are the appetizer drinks before we had the stronger drinks.

The third drink was Jagar bomb & Around the world. These are the cocktail drinks. It taste pretty good especially the around the world, it have a the sweetness of the pineapple which makes it more tasty compared to the cough syrup taste of jagar bomb.

For the last drink, was looking at the shooters menu and with the help of the waiter's recommendation, he ordered Bacardi 151 shots. He said if we wanted a stunt to the drink. He lighted up the drink and it just reminded me of flaming Lamborghini drink that i had before. It didn't taste that good but its indeed strong and effective after a little daze at the band. The after effect makes the throat a little sore and dry which made me cough.

It was a great night at a great place with great music and drinks and a great friend.

cry baby

2011-12-08T10:29:00.004+08:00

The week of "home alone" made me sleepless almost every night.
The constant nights of dreams kept me either too tired the next day or woke me up in the middle of the night.
I felt like a "cry baby" missing my dearly family members who is away for holidays and ns re-service.

"broke into tears" at 6.34am in the morning.
"Another nightmare" he asked.
I nodded my head with a teary sniffing voice, "yes".
The familiar voice of comfort which I long to hear.
The familiar voice which calms me down.

I felt like a precious gem.
It felt that this gem have a keeper who would always be there to protect it from any form of scratches.
I felt like a polished gem with his warmth touch and anxiety voice.

Would my keeper stay devoted to me......

Trust

2011-12-02T11:28:00.005+08:00

Understanding the meaning of trust.....

What is trust? In short, it means to believe in others.

Trust is being emotional and logical at the same time.
Trust is emotional when we put our feelings and faith on the respective people; friends, family and lovers.
Trust is logical when we consider what are the pros and cons, worthiness and reliability of people or situation.

Thus we start to question, how reliable is trust?
Trust can be affected by a number of factors which may or may not be clearly understood or analyze.
In situation of relationships, emotions may affect how sure our trust would be. The turning and twisting of our emotions to suit our perception on what we want to see or achieve, which make us believe that our perception is right and our trust is logical.

Trust is what we want to believe and not what we should believe.. (it depends)

I would choose to trust you.

Assumptions

2011-11-29T08:51:00.006+08:00

Have you ever wondered, how much you understood your partner?

We may assume that we understood them but when we asked ourselves again and again, we might think that we were just too overconfident of ourselves. Many times we thought that he/she may understood your actions but we never realized the stress and pressure behind that may hurt them indirectly.

We assume that our partner understood how important a career means to us but we never realized that when career overpowered his/her feelings, it had strongly affected them. They are not a piece of dead wood but a person who is full of feelings and emotions running through them.

We assume that our partner needs no form of encouragement since they understood the logical reason but love is never logical. It is form of attraction that words would never be able to explain it fully. It require regular attention, care and concern for the partner.

We may assume many things but only when we clarify our thoughts with each other, that is when we truly know that our assumptions are because of the trust we had for each other.

The deep held feelings along the pavement

2011-11-16T14:04:00.014+08:00

The deep held feelings of not having someone to be there at the most precious time of her life. It may be just be a birthday or some quiet moments when she needs to be fed with comfort and warmth from the precious person. She hide her feelings well, perhaps she is just wanting to avoid the tears and pain. It was triggered yet again, she felt hurt. No matter how much she tells herself 괜찮아, she still feels hurt.

Words of Wisdom - LIFE

2011-06-21T14:53:00.004+08:00

Dear Readers,

I would like to share with you the following. May you find it useful and gives you a sense of tranquility.

Keep moving forward, even one or two steps, in your own way. Those who live out their lives to the fullest, unperturbed by the noisy clamor around them, are the true winners.

The worst mistake you can make is to give up on yourself and stop challenging yourself for fear of failure. Keep moving forward with a firm eye on the future, telling yourself, "I'll start from today!" "I'll start afresh from now, from this very moment!"

If we suppose this lifetime to be the be-all and end-all of existence, we cannot lead a truly profound life. Belief in something eternal brings out our full humanity.

Because people remain ignorant of the fact that their life is infinitely precious and at one with the eternal universe, they live indifferent to the dignity of other people's lives.

The voice is a mirror of our being, of our state of life. Our voice forthrightly reveals our true character, our cultivation as a human being. Our voices are ourselves.

The voice is the vibration of the whole living entity. A person's being and character are revealed by their voice. The voice is our second face; we may conceal our true appearance but we cannot hide our voice.

Life is a struggle, and ultimate victory is only decided in its final chapter. That is why it's important not to grow conceited in victory or become disheartened in defeat. Those who keep pressing onward toward a goal with tireless patience and persistence win in the end.

In life, we should not be totally absorbed with only immediate realities. We must have ideals and strive to achieve them, transcending present realities. On the other hand we should not allow ourselves to become alienated from reality. We can change nothing unless our feet are planted firmly on the ground.

Life is an ongoing succession of births and deaths. From this perspective, we must seek our goal and mission in something that transcends birth and death, something that we can give our whole life to. Only then can we tap the inexhaustible potential of life. In other words, we must advance beyond the mere struggle to stay alive and be prepared to ask ourselves for what purpose we live our lives.

While it is important to win, it's even more important to remain undefeated no matter what happens.

If you hope for a peaceful death as the final summation of your life, live each and every day with vitality, never failing to take everything that happens as an opportunity to open and expand your inner life, exerting yourself to the fullest in the place you find yourself now.

If you lose today, win tomorrow. In this never-ending spirit of challenge is found the heart of a victor.

Being halfhearted is such a waste. If we go around as if we're half-asleep all the time, we can't hope to savor a life that is free of regret. Enthusiasm and vigor are vital ingredients for a fulfilling life.

Whether it be individuals, organizations, nations, civilizations, all forms of life in nature--for all entities in this universe, life is an ongoing challenge. In this struggle we find the essence and unchanging truth of life. When one stops challenging, decline begins.

Hardships make us strong. Problems give birth to wisdom. Sorrows cultivate compassion. Those who have suffered the most will become the happiest.

The struggle between happiness and unhappiness is the story of human existence. The struggle between peace and war is the history of the human race. The power that leads us to eternal victory amid these struggles is the power of good within us.

Life is the blossoming of flowers in the spring, the ripening of fruit in the fall, the rhythm of the earth and of nature. Life is the cry of cicadas signaling the end of summer, migratory birds winging south in a transparent autumn sky, fish frolicking in a stream. Life is the joy beautiful music instills in us, the thrilling sight of a mountain peak reddened by the rising sun, the myriad combinations and permutations of visible and invisible phenomena. Life is all things.

Of course, people want to live long. But in the end, what matters more is what we have been able to leave behind -- the value we have created in our lives, the number of people we have made happy and how much we have been able to grow and expand as a person.

Buddhism teaches that a single day of life is worth more than all the treasures of the universe.

Everyone born in this world has a unique role that only he or she can fulfill. Were this not the case, we would not be here. The universe never acts without cause; everything invariably has a reason for being. Even the weeds people love to loathe serve a purpose. I might add that every cherry blossom has its own personality, a purpose and meaning in life that is unique to it-as do the plum, peach and damson.

The course of our lives is determined by how we react--what we decide and what we do--at the darkest of times. The nature of that response determines a person's true worth and greatness.

When we are aware that each moment of each day, each gesture and step we take, is truly mystical and full of wonder, we will live our lives with greater thought and care. We will also have greater respect and appreciation for the lives of others.

Live in a way that is full of life... for yourself, for your loved ones, for your friends. People who do so will find the courage to transform sufferings into hopes. Not only that, but they will be able to light the lamp of hope in the hearts of many others, as well.

It would be pointless for a plum blossom to try to remake itself as a cherry blossom, no matter how deeply the plum yearns to do so. The plum is happiest when it blooms as itself in full glory. How much of the color and wonder of life would be lost if it weren't for our differences.

Whether in life or in a specific undertaking, there will undoubtedly be times when you achieve genuine progress, only to come up against a wall or feel yourself regressing. There will be times when you just need to stop and rest. Such are the vicissitudes inherent to any struggle. When you challenge to achieve something, be ready to face the unexpected.

Life may be more akin to a series of meets than a single marathon. You can lose a race here or there, as long as you win in one contest, in one area. All the struggles you endured will become a prized investment in your own person.

Human society can be full of contradictions. It can be unfair; unforgiving, too. Yet we cannot afford to dismiss it and turn our backs to the world. A person who does loses, and no excuse can gloss that over. Given a choice whether to sink or swim, we must swim to the very end, no matter how the seas around us may rage.

Source: http://www.ikedaquotes.org/life.html

Things to do

2011-06-09T15:52:00.003+08:00

There are many things we could do.
Sincere appreciation.
Sincere thoughts.
Sincere efforts.
I'm sure someday/one day they will see us.

Your Promises

2011-05-22T12:38:00.002+08:00

I will remember the day, 20May2011 where he made his promise that he will never let go of my hand.

Will you promise to love me, protect me, take care of me, bring me happiness, give in to me, put me as priority, not to tease me often, be sincere to me, be respectful to me, love my family, love my friends, be a gentlemen, be humble and to give me the best to me?

Promises aren't just words but with real actions.

I be waiting.

We will Walk together

2011-05-19T17:32:00.004+08:00

We will hold each other hands and walk the distance together.

heartbroken

2011-05-17T21:48:00.003+08:00

There are so many things and questions running through my mind. Although it isn't the first time i felt so helpless. Many bombarded me with questions and i just couldn't answer back. All I have in my head is that I will work things out no matter what it takes. People say that I'm foolish and naive but I believe and trust my eyes. There isn't any point of comparing who loves more or who love less. There is never a definite line to distinguish it.

In terms of character, I am confidence that I'm not any spoiled brat. I'm not those who ignore or disobey the elderly. Friends say that I'm always well loved by people of all ages but this time it seems otherwise. I never doubt myself but i just couldn't please this one person who is going to be important in my life.

I do things sincerely from my heart. I just want people around me to be happy. The method may be incorrect at certain times but its because I'm not at the state of my mind.

The lines and phrases kept repeating inside my head. The images popping in my head made me constantly breaking into tears. I'm upset is because I'm not that kind of person.

I asked to be loved, adore, sincere, respect, understanding, sharing of happiness/unhappiness together.

Its never about luxury nor money.

It's alright if there is no car but it is a privilege to have one.

It's alright that there are no real gems but it be a privilege to have one.

It's not the money but the sincerity I have seen.

The effort in coming over to look for me after driving class to catch a movie with me. That is how you touches me.

Millions of needles piercing through my heart.

I need your support and not blame me for all.

Lesson 1: k hip-hop

2011-04-10T21:00:00.000+08:00

Today is my first Korean hip-hop class with the girls. I was pretty excited but worried at the same time. Although i did some dancing a few years ago but it was more of Indian/Hindu/English pop music. Not to mention that i did not even own a set of proper clothes which would be comfortable for dance practices. Back before, it was just home shorts which i probably won't even wear it out to buy food or out for groceries shopping.

The class started with warm up practices which included some moves. Initially it was quite difficult to follow but continuous practices makes it slightly better. (I guess i need lots lots of practices) The instructor seems to be shy initially but as time goes by she tried to adjust a little. I think I'm going to have so much fun in class.
My classmates are a mixture of characteristics; shy, outgoing, daring and more. I have yet to interact with them but i think soon i would.

The song that she taught us was by 2ne1, though i kinda forgotten the song name already. The class ended with a video recording. (It was said to be a routine for all classes) OMG! I think i made lots of mistakes. I just need to work hard to overcome my fear of dancing in front of people.
( I start to wonder how i manage to be up on the stage for so many times but have yet to overcome the fear.) Class ended with perspiration all over me. Good work out!

Good job girls!!

Next was lunching at Iluma - korean restaurant

Spicy chewy noodles with dumplings
Jajiang mian (Black bean paste)

Lastly, neoprints with the girls.

Angela's 21st Party

2011-04-04T12:56:00.000+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday to our dearest Angela!
April baby!

Let us let the photos to do the talking.

Cute 'Birthday' specs that cecilia bought for us.

Our birthday girl is so excited to cut her cake.

A group photo of the J.P.A.C =)

A group photo with the course mates.

Lastly, a thank you card for all the guest who attended her BIG day.

I love it................

2011-03-18T16:31:00.004+08:00

There are many things in my life that I loved.
He is one of many "precious".

Meaning of love

2011-03-06T01:39:00.002+08:00

What is the meaning of love?
a) To sacrifice yourself for their happiness?
b) To protect them from the negative impacts?
c) To avoid saying the truth?
d) To have a big heart and absorb all the negative truth

What is the real reason? The real reason seems to be harming than helping them. (perspective is in the eye of the beholder)

Truth hurts, truth aches
Truth just don't bring happiness immediately.
Truth learn, truth apply
Truth brought happiness gradually.

Do you understand my love?

The Habit

2011-03-05T23:20:00.002+08:00

It was rare for him to be resting at home during weekends. It was a good chance of me to be spending time with him; knowing the unpredictable calls he receives from office. I guess learning to get used to the habit is the way of understanding too.

The distance used to be not an issue and it's still never an issue. Well, distance is equivalent to time. Sometimes time never seems to be sufficient; be it in work, play or studies. We just have to learn to be contented and manageable with what we have.

Feeling so blue.

Rams Training

2011-03-03T14:31:00.003+08:00

I'm finally back at my desk today. For the last 3 days, I attended RAMS course, (risk assessment management) which was said to be a mandatory course for me. It was fun socializing with people from different schools. The trainers are very humorous and helpful. Their presence made the lesson more interesting. On the last day which is the assessment day, we have an oral exam and I'm glad that i made it through. From that, I realized that I actually learn a lot from the trainers. I guess going through test would trigger my brain cells to remember what I've learn. It did gave me some sense of satisfaction.

Uni Application

2011-02-24T15:26:00.007+08:00

I'm glad that I have finally made a decision when i have decided to send the documents to the school. I shall just let the panel to decide if I'm the lucky one.

In the beginning, I was having a hard time deciding which would be the right school for me. I didn't want to make a impulsive decision when i know that this will be written in my book forever. I did took quite a long while to decide; approximately 8-9months while at the same time i started working. I was pondering between Australian university and local university. The difference is in the number of years. Time is so precious and I feel that I'm at a slower track compared to my peers. Besides that, I was affected by the forums which have shown me more cons than pros. That made me doubt my own decisions.

Thanks to my precious love, friends and colleagues whom have assure me and guided me throughout this period.

At this moment now, i can only pray hard and hope to be selected.

*Cross my finger*

First experience

2011-02-22T15:29:00.004+08:00

There are many first time that you will have in life.
When you are a little baby, your first experience is to learn to crawl, walk and finally you can run.
You learn to bite, chew and finally you can swallow.

When you are a teenager, your first experience is to learn, absorb and finally you learn to use the knowledge.
You learn to read, understand and finally you can interpret the passage.

When you are a working adult, your first experience is to learn from your respective colleagues, absorb the knowledge they share and finally create something new which would benefit the company.

At different phases, we seems to be doing different things but actual fact, the learning idea is the same.

2010-07-21T02:05:00.003+08:00

Clocking 2.08am in the morning..
Eyes seems to be shutting off any time but something seems to be missing or not in place. I couldn't have any sort of explanations to persuade myself. The feelings seems to be suppressed deep down. As time and day passes, I seems to have accumulate more of those feelings. The emptiness that is hitting my mind at all times. Watching a movie alone in the theater seems to be just big words that comes out from my mouth. The effort to do it is so much harder. What's worst isn't just settling the mind to catch which movie but to enjoy this movie alone without someone sitting beside you. It's never "used to it" or as easy as ABC when you know that you are not alone. At second thoughts, you have so much to consider. For example, the opposed feelings deep down. This is just another way of avoidance to the feelings which is pulling you down. Never expects myself to stay up though i had a glass of wine earlier on.

I shall just try and close my eyes.

Crazy Night

2010-07-18T09:12:00.004+08:00

I have not felt this crazy for a long time; stepping into this play land which i used to patronize a year ago. For once deep down, I have enjoyed myself but i still dislike waking up the next morning. The troubles and worries seems to get more real and clear in my head. No worries, I won't allow myself to go back into these kind of lifestyle; partying night and spinning morning. At least I feel that this is a good break for myself, rather than keeping emotions to myself.

" Living in self-deinal is comforting"

Yes but how long can we comfort ourselves with the lies knowing that it isn't real anymore. I hope to support her through this tough time.

“好胆你就来“

It's a rock song by Ah Mei. =) Early in the morning, my house feels so alive with this music. It feels like the night is not over yet. =X *stomach growling..

Some photos taken at Hereen with the girls.

2010-07-04T00:24:00.005+08:00

It was the nicest things that i have heard so far from him. "Lets meet up on Friday". Well, this line doesn't sound any impressive or surprising to anyone but to me, it is what i have been wanting to hear from him. It seems like we been back to the old days where he would take the initiative to date me out for a movie, dinner and etc. It was kinda disappointing that my body doesn't seems to be in a good condition for any enjoyment. Thus this sweet boy decided to come over my house, added on that he bought me dinner too. We were supposed to be catching movie but instead we watched tv and a short part of the movie in my computer. Next, the Zzzz monster started hypothesising him but with a smack on his head, he was awake. That moment didn't last so i chased him home and he left, though deep down i hope he would stay for the night with me since......... but well...... Zzz monster had conquer the core of his mind.

Every moment spend together is precious.
Every moment spend together is limited.
Thus i just wished that you could feel the same way too.

2010-06-19T20:07:00.003+08:00

I'm starting to believe that there is no "free lunch" in the world. There's always an expectation, demand, favor behind this set of scrumptious delicious meal. Everything that is done for, i never believe in asking a favor back. If actions, things are done out of your own will, i don't see to have he/she getting pay back but deep down our heart, we sincerely hope that one would favor back.

You are a free bird who needs freedom.
When i count back what are the things that you have to do every week, it seems that time isn't sufficient for you at all.
24 x 7 = 168hours per week.
10 x 7 = 70 hours for sleeping
10 x 5 = 50 hours working

You left 48 hours but adhoc lots of other stuff.
I guess even 1 minute is so precious.

If there are things that you really want to do, go ahead and fulfill your goals, dreams.
E.g. Muscular body, tanned body, shaped built.

I reflect back thinking if i have been holding you back. Have I?
I hope that i won't know the answer.

Remember I told you that i have a dream.
I dreamt that i meet you up at town somewhere in Europe.
You were so busy and i was here but couldn't even see you.
The following day I head back home.

Next, more dreams i have for the following night.
I guess it was really hinting me to learn to accept it. ( Not learn but HAVE to get it into my head)

I need some directions which is equivalent to time.

home..

she is clever, she knows me so well.
She knows i'm hiding my emotions.

*Thunder Roar....*

The sky is screaming at me too.

But i just want you to know.

You are my boyfriend, Adrian Neo.

You know that or not.

"Be frank, trueful, be honest"
"tell me how you feel, don't say you find out yourself"
" don't hid it and say that ..................."

Home home home.
Is the only place that i feel comfortable.

36years working

2010-06-03T08:40:00.004+08:00

The definition of work is, " something that one is doing, making, or performing, especially as an occupation or undertaking a duty or task."

The definition of crunch is, " the critical moment or situation."

We spend 6 years studying in primary school.
We spend 4 year studying in secondary school.
We spend either 2/3 years studying in a tertiary institute.
We spend another 3-4 years studying in university.

At the age of 24, we spend 17 years studying.

(due to the advanced medical technology)

We may live up to 60-70 years old.

We may spend 36 years of our lives working in companies.

Every year we would have at least 6-9months crunch period.
In total, we have 324months crunch period which is equivalent to 27 years.

36-27 = 9 years of normal working period.

9 years of working life we may have time for each other but not for the 27 years.

Work is a never ending piece of work that we are required to do to live our life to the fullest.
It also gives you a sense of satisfaction when you achieve a certain level.
It's the satisfaction that makes one pushing him/herself. (monetary gain, experiences gained)

Work also gives you loneliness which it may be hooked or spread to your surrounding.
Work is a gain and a loss.
Its how you define them.

My first offical job

2010-05-23T16:28:00.007+08:00

It's going to be a month since I started working in Primary School as a co-cirrcular programme executive. The name sounds attractive but its actually lots of work to do. Perhaps as for now, it isn't as much but as time passes, the more i know, the higher the responsibilities that will weigh on my shoulder. This is my first offical full-time job that i have and i would be bonded for at least 1 year (maximum 2 years). Its a pity that the opportunites comes right after I have made the decision to sign the contract. Firstly, the marketing company called and next a opportunity to travel overseas to work. Sometimes I wonder, was i being to impulsive of wanting to get a full-time job as soon as possible and not been called as wasted. I thought so too. Even my bro said that i should have waited but who knows this would come knocking on my door unexpectedly. Actually no one will know about it. I guess that was the path that was lead to be slowly. Perhaps as time passes, i might actually find my path. This is just a stepping stone to my future.

Lets talk about my job scope. I mainly handle everything that have got to do with CCAs. Besides that, i have lots of interactions with the adminstrative office staff, teachers, students and parents. There was once I was assisting a teacher in a funfit lesson (meant for slightly obese/obese kids). I was giving instructions and you know kids are very eager and anticipated in doing things. I was looking for a kid to help in demostrations and many hands were raised, i happened to pick the younger sister and the older sister got mad at me and say, "I don't like teacher, i don't want to listen to you." I guess i wasn't meant to be a teacher cause its really difficult to shout or order the kids to do things. I was glad some were nice and listened. There was another time i was walking outside various classes, making sure that pupils are good during their exams. I was a little shy caused its very weird walking back and off and having their eyes staring at you. It was worst when I was asked to look after the class for a while. The pupils kept looking at me and i was kinda speechless. In my mind i was saying, " look at your exam paper, why keep looking at me." There were also many concidences too. I met many friends whom i have not met for a long time. I met my friend, Nurus who is my secondary school classmate. She was doing relief in the school and i happened to see her at the office. Besides that, i also met my friend's sister there. She used to guide us in our dance performance and i supposed she's a teacher here too.

The reason why i held back in this job, its because of the people whom i have met. They gave me great faith and trust in me that i felt that i would never will betray their trust. I know that they are the ones that will fight my way up to a higher level if i gave them my promise by staying for a couple of years. I believe that its always nice to stay in a job for at least a year to get the full scope of this job.

Friends, my babes.. so sorry for missing out so much fun with you guys.
How i wished for that freedom at times too.
I'm so looking forward to the birthdays and i know you will have lots of fun.
Let me know if you need a hand babe. Alright

~jAc

2010-04-14T22:23:00.002+08:00

I'm sitting in the middle of the pool.
All surrounding me is water.
It's not just water but its troubles.

The water level seems to be raising higher and higher.
The more i was afraid of drowning.
It's not that I can't swim but its too overpowering for me.

The waves decides to join the fun and it came along.
It was supposed to be interesting but it became more dangerous.
I was afraid again.

I was hoping that i might be swarm into an island.
perhaps that would be my comfort zone.

Thunder Green Tea

2010-03-11T11:54:00.002+08:00

The sudden craving for thunder green tea at ah moi street. (i think i spelt wrongly)

Goodbye Polytechnic life

2010-02-15T23:34:00.006+08:00

Firstly, wishing everyone a happy Chinese new year 2010!

For people who are in their 3rd year of polytechnic, congrats guys! Your made it through these 3 years and hope that everyone achieved their goals and did well in their exams. Good luck to all my friends be it in work or studies, all the best to you all. It's been the greatest honour to have known you guys and i cherish all the good and bad times with you all.

It feels as though its just yesterday i have just started my poly life but it actual fact, its already the end. Well, there are always hellos and goodbyes thus we just have to smile and look forward to what is coming into our life next. I believe that we may be so busy in earning/savings and studying but do take a break and catch up with your friends whom you have spend so closely for the past 3 years or less.

Many people to thank.
Many people to appreciate.

Sometimes when you think back, there is no right or wrong but its just the perspective that everyone sees differently. Since its a fresh new year and its Chinese new year, shall we just open our hearts to people and learn to understand from their point of view. Perhaps you will find the answers that you have been looking for.

There someone i would like to thank which is you. You have been the first babe whom i have lean on when i am really down. It was like the worst moment which i have but you always been a support there for me.

You lost, you gain.
Though i hope that i have a "peace" sign but i guess its the way of life.
To people whom i've lost, i just want to tell you that i appreciate you as much as you do. you just have to open up your heart and feel me and not by seeing it to conclude it.
To people i have gain, THANKS you alll guys! Thanks for accepting me for whom i am and that's me. =))

Thanks to you again guys! =))

I love you all... hope that our path would meet again.. =))

2010-01-27T23:38:00.003+08:00

"I miss the days back at........."

This line have been what we always been saying when we missed the fun, sweet and memorable times spend together. And yes, this came into my mind when i was browsering through the photos taken. Good and bad times spend but it didn't stand long. I know i shouldn't be dwelling about the past but its what that came across my mind out of sudden. I guess its something that i will always remember.

I miss the fun times we share back.
I miss the slice of cheesecake.
I miss the bbq and beach.
I miss the little bickerings.

but right now,
I miss my baby whose already in bed; sleeping and snoring soundly (hahahhahaha!!)
It would have been nice if we could have go cruise or a trip to the beach someday.
I know you love the sun like as though its your baby.
I know that but a bottle of sun-block is what you promised.

Remember our talk on working together?
It sounds really good! we can lunch and even head home together.
Even during the peak period, we can work hard together.
Good or bad times we will share. =)

Of course! I miss the times i spend with you.
Though it was tiring and busy with the preparation in the chalet, but ur always a moltivator and encouraging towards me.

2009-12-26T22:37:00.003+08:00

Many great time spent together this festive season. Have been spending time meeting up with various groups of friends (sec/poly/friends). The chalet was indeed an enjoyable! Although we spend time on watching tv (news, 当我们同在一起, random English dramas). There's nothing much to do but its fun when people just come together. Many fond memories also came from the park (etc. running at 3am under the rain, awesome toys, similar house decorations) Have you ever realised that the little similarities bond us more closely? I think it does! =D We may not have pictures of memories but its remembered but if i ever forgets it, do remind me. =P luv lots!

jAc

Planet 51

2009-12-17T23:43:00.004+08:00

"Planet 51" a movie I catch recently. It's really an enjoyable movie!
If you ever need a good laugh, go catch this movie! It makes you "smile" =D
just like how much i smile through out this entire movie.

"Christmas Carol" is a touching and meaningful movie whereby no words can explain it.
It feels "warmth" and "home".

Plans
- dmts chalet 21-22 dec
- celebration for ahgong 23 dec
- Girls night out and christmas meet up 24 dec

Girls Outing

2009-12-07T20:09:00.008+08:00

3rd Dec 09

On Thursday, went to zoo and Singapore flyers with the girls. =) It was a fun and tiring day. My legs was feeling so sore after walking the entire day. It was my first time sitting in flyers and indeed was a great experience. Its really a great view from above though it was just lightnings that makes it so beautiful.

5th Dec 09
Happy smiles all over the faces =D I guess you enjoyed the night too. It was surprising to have seen him at movida as its been many years since we met. The days at the rink was indeed memorable.
"certain things are always remembered"

Happy 24th birthday to my dearest KOR KOR!!

2009-11-30T23:00:00.007+08:00

29thNov09

It was '3 point shooting" game organised by my parents. It was really difficult for me to get out of bed the next day when i hardly sleep for the night. In the morning, received a call from Esther saying she's coming over when I am still in bed. We went for lunch and shopping after the event. She bought 2 shoes(heels,flats). I wasn't expecting to buy anything but was excited and tempted when i found the one. =))

Many things been told and said.

No explanations is needed.

With a simple hug from me to you,

the doubts are cleared.

Many eyes have seen this moment.

Many eyes assured that.

what matters is your eyes,

what matter is my eyes.

what matter is if our eyes met.

69 david tao autograph session

2009-11-29T02:00:00.005+08:00

28Nov09
Today was david tao's new album autograph session. It was the first time for me to attend this kind of function. It was kinda unexpected that i would actually go that crazy for my idol which usually isnt the case. I queued up and get the album signed and i was all blushing red when he shake my hands. In 8jan next year, its his "david tao in space-The talk & rock show". It's really going to be a pity if i give it a miss. Maybe i should consider shopping at orchard central and get a chance to win a concert tickets. It said that there will be tickets won weekly, would i get that lucky? I enjoyed my day so much though my legs are breaking with the new heels i just bought the day before. I really love the heels but its just isnt as comfortable as i thought it would be. Thanks for the sweet gift. =)

Thanks for being there for me

girl, i'm so worried for you but i hope that you will learn to walk through all these obstacles. If you ever need a shoulder, i will try to be there for you. =)

jAc

shall update autograph session(david tao) another day.

2009-11-26T09:25:00.003+08:00

It was an unfinished post as yesterday's lessons consist of so much calculations. To think that my reason of choosing "energy utilities and management" thinking that its more about managing and not expecting to see calculation but I simply enjoyed the lesson so much, though the calculation can be really time-consumping. I've been feeling relaxed lately as my fyp report have handed in. (so happy) cause its like finally done after so long.

shall enjoy the concert tonight.. (just feel like chilling tonight)

Calamari Rings

2009-11-25T09:02:00.003+08:00

I enjoy eating calamari rings but not all the types i can eat. (the fact is that i just can't have squid) I can eat those fried ones where their squid percentage is lesser compared to those normal stew ones. Thus whenever i want to eat this, i make sure i will avoid the specific people else it be gone, "poof".

heex.

2009-11-20T01:44:00.000+08:00

Hihi!! This picture is taken at admiralty park near the pond. It's called, "cat tail" (typha). I didn't know its edible cause it totally doesn't look like "food" to me. It said that "cat tail heart" can be eaten and its quite juicy which is good for summer. Interesting! The entire class have a walk approx 2hours at the park looking at different habitats. Its considered one of the biggest park which have the widest variety of habitats.

I have a trip down to loyang point this evening. The weather was really cold, was freezing cold while standing at the bus stop but it feels good. =D well, at least our enquries are cleared for the bbq, that was a sign of relief. Enjoyed the dinner, chatty and fun as usual it was. Thanks alot! =)) and thanks to the ones i've troubled to help me cleared my quiz, evaluation..

haha.. as promise, i will go sleep..=D

Paranormal Activity

2009-11-15T17:01:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps!

This is freaky but one of the best horrifying movie I've catch so far!

It makes you scream but if your prone to nightmares, guess not.

It does leave a stain in your mind.

2009-11-07T23:39:00.001+08:00

seriously lots of work to do for the 3 weeks. =((( I'm going to buy chicken essences tml..

Lunch @ Aston

2009-11-03T09:41:00.003+08:00

This is taken at Aston at Sembawang shopping center. =) It's been quite a while since we took this photo. ( a late update girls) All the best to student taking advanced material. It seems that the ut is going to be tough.. =(( ohh myy.. How about another aston session after ut1?

2009-10-28T23:19:00.008+08:00

Its been super tiring for me these few days. Its just the 3rd day of the week and I'm exhausted already. tml after class, i have to head down bukit batok for tuition. =) Sadly to say, friday i have to come school for fyp.

Last sat (24th oct 09), went dinner with adrian and his friends at vivo. After that, head off to movida to chill the night. Surprisingly wilson came down as he said that his in beach outfit. Well, it doesn't looks like, perhaps he got a spare set in his car. enjoy the night, alot.

today (28oct 09), head for movie "the sisters keeper" with angela ng and cecilia. Its a touching show which makes my heart teared deep down. It tells us that although there are certain thing that we don't want to let go, but we have to at the certain point of time. There's no point holding back so much when you know that the situation is still going to be the same. At least reduce the pain to the lowest. Bringing pain to everyone else isn't a wise choice. Be brave when facing it girl. =))

met up with Angela Lin... omg!! miss her so much! We have yet seen each other since my 3th oct, first bday celebration, that week? ya, finally got to meet her up for dinner and chatting session. We went to buy mask today and i bought 10 pieces for myself. (O2 shop) haa.. not crazy, its not even sufficient, though i still have another 30 in the fridge.

shall look forward to hallowen as i would be attending a concert at ngee ann poly in the evening; raphael will be performing too. =) I have to go support him!!!

Ut starting next week! i need to do revision!

Crazy NIght @ fly

2009-10-13T23:36:00.007+08:00

It was a crazy night at fly and i have enjoyed myself so much! I feel that having friends by your side is more important than anything else; its not about the drinking or the place. Although i cant deny that yes it does adds more fun too.

I'm so bliss to have my family, friends and besties by my side in this special 21st birthday. Though there are still certain things that I'm hoping for deep inside. Thinking twice again, do i really hope for it? I don't know anymore, somehow my vision towards have blurred as days go by. I'm just going to wait and see how things goes, perhaps I might still remain positive about it. 但是，我不想欺骗我自己。我明知道是__________，但还是有一点______.

When i saw the milk, i screamed. I'm so surprised, so touched when they bought this for me. Even right now, i can still feel the moment of joy which tears kept rolling in my eyes.

Been through a week of class, the most pressurize class is nanotechnology. It's been another extremely tired day after class though there are still doubts running through my head. I guess I won't be getting a good grade for today's lesson. Everytime before presentation, it felt as though I'm going to undergo another rollercoaster in korea.

2009-10-02T01:23:00.003+08:00

These two days I have been catching movies; "The ugly truth" and "Fame". Both movies are very factual because its all about the truth behind the beautiful face and hard work to achieve your dreams. Fame inspires me a lot and for the first time i felt a sort of silence during the entire show. That was how mesmerize i was while watching it. At Cathay, i went into this shop; very artistic as it sells many ornaments, books, clothes. I was looking at this leather long wallet, it was really nice though its just a simple layout, very attracted. There are also many colors too; orange, black, beech. I thought that it was $59 from just a short glance but it turns out to be $95! I wanted to say, that's its affordable at $59 but its the other way round. This means NONO... hahax!! I was at ion on wednesday, saw this lime green cover up, not really nice but the color is really bright!! haha.. guess what, i was more attracted to the shades, especially the belt like pattern at the side of the shades. looks nice!! haa

okk.. save save save..

2009-10-01T00:24:00.004+08:00

"exciting" wasn't that I'm supposed to be feeling right now?
It seems that "depress" came into me slowly.
I can say frankly I'm quite disturbed and affected by the sequences.
There's just so many question marks running through my head, thinking why why why.
Was I over-sensitive or it was just another drama of the period?
perhaps the drama decided to turn to reality and thats why its more confusing then ever.
I wonder if I should ever question the answer.
Somehow i got the answer.
which is, "there's no answer".

2009-09-29T21:58:00.004+08:00

My mind is still in korea, just like what's everyone is feeling in theis period of time. Even though I'm here in spore but i'm missing the food there. Especially spicy rice cake which is one of my favourite dish. I tried one of their delicacies roadside and its really good. At times when i'm in jurong point, i would make sure that i drop by the korean food section and have bibimbap or other favourite dishes that i enjoyed back then. I still missed the spicy kimchi and whenever i have it, i will drink cups of water to release the spiciness but yet i enjoyed the process. Like now, i've started to enjoy bands like bigbang, 2ne1, wonder girls. (kinda outdated right)

like what i always say " school starting soon". ohh my! its really coming soon, just next week i'm starting class. Doesn't sound like a holiday right? its just too short! =(( but I'm happy that its coming since its going to come to an end soon.

2009-09-27T12:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 21st birthday to my dearest cousin!!! =DD
The only dragon babies among all...

2009-09-25T23:06:00.003+08:00

This is my dinner for tonight. It is one of the most delicious instant noodles i have eaten so far. When i open the pack, i was looking for the seasoning packet but everything is in the noodle. when you cooked the noodle, it will have its own soup based in it. isnt is special??? (from japan) yummy!! Break an egg on the noodle and pour the hot soup onto the bowl and the dish is done.

I'm back from Korea IEP trip!

2009-09-23T00:24:00.007+08:00

Hi folks! I'm back from Korea! I enjoyed a lot during the 9 days of the trip but also learn a lot of things. What I have enjoyed most is the cultural experience there. I have the chance to learn how to make bibimba, wear korean costume and learn how to bow; which is usually seen in korean drama. Besides that, visiting universities and companies. Although it sounds like fun than work but this experience would be once in a lifetime.

ohh ya! rp students are really clever!! Sometimes they manage to get the links for your modules grades even before the release date. I'm glad that i make it through. =)) have to mugg harder next semester!

2009-09-12T00:45:00.004+08:00

Time really flies and it doesnt really seems like a holiday to me. This phase, " school starting soon" is really a joke but well, it really seems that school term is rather short. Its just 1 month, and i cant even work since i'm spending most of the time in school.

exciting trip tml night! T2 KE642 10.50pm. I'm all ready to go to korea!!! (still have a little packing to clear up, hope i dont overload again)

I miss the girls so much!!! See you soon!! dont drink too much!

you came unexpected, but i hope that nothing would happen. but you made me smile.

Citispa Package

2009-09-04T01:10:00.006+08:00

woah! At last the blogger.com does not have error, weird huh, its only mine having error while most my friends' works.

Well, today was the last day of Korean lesson but it wasn't supposed to be. Since he had taught us whatever its needed to be known, lesson cancelled. Besides that, he taught us for free, isn't he sweet? After class went causeway; cotton-on shop. Next, head back to swim with Esther at her pool. Surprisingly, i was slightly tanned after swimming for a while. (the sun is really strong) Earlier on at woodlands its raining and its sunny at Jurong. Next head to jurong point for dinner. We were happily walking around and then a lady stopped us with spa treatment, etc. We stopped by the road show for quite sometime, she's really very nice giving us many vouchers but yes, we have to buy the treatments which cost $38 each. (promotional price) It started from a package of 30 treatments costing up to $1219.8, with 2-4 more treatments free. In total, it's really expensive if you look at a whole but its really reasonable when you divide the cost to the number of treatments. Then she dropped to 20, to 10 and to 5. Although i do think that do cost a lot since we do not have a job to cover up these. Though the case, we bought it in the end, since its really worth while and after the long chat with diana(the citispa lady), she gave us the best price she could give. hahax, now i really have to save save save... =((( well, going out with me still spend, though its just jurong point...

2009-08-17T13:55:00.003+08:00

From 8 pieces of egg tarts to 12 pieces of egg tarts. Guess how many we have eaten? Its 9 plate of egg tarts... hahax.. so yummy!! but mummy's face getting stricter too. She didn't like us to eat so much eggs especially but when my dad allows, she looked at him.. hahax!! so fun!! love my sunday with my family!!

Let me share another favourite dish that I love so much!! Its this vegetable, well i dont know the name of this but its crunchy!! The difficulty of cooking this vegetable is that you need to have a BIG fire thus your kitchen may be in a mess after cooking it.

Last friday, i met up didi after running. As told i will reached at around 9pm, i shorten my run but tried to make the best use of time to run as long as i could. Upon reaching the destination, i did another turn around till it reached 9pm. Met Justin there too.. from a joke of going to eat prata at bukit gombak, it became true. hahax!! So whose our driver? its justin!! haa! horrible guys, kept showing me their driving licence as i have yet completed my course when they started even later than me. Justin's driving is really slow, but safe?? (maybe) just a little dangerous; road hogging a little. But that is his way of driving, as long as no accident its fine.. since his always below the speed limit, a lawful driver.. Its really fun sitting on the car. Its so much different from daddy's car.. daddy's car is like flying while his is like chilling.

well, your make my day!! =)) thanks rapheal and justin!!

hoho!! exciting, there's dance class later in school.. Although im quite unprepared but shall give it a shot.. Good luck jac!

2009-08-12T20:49:00.000+08:00

I was so happy yesterday after i've finsh my driving lesson. Well, for this lesson, it wasn't any of my group instructors teaching me but he was really a nice person!! haha!! He was rather patient and allow me to turn in with my own opinion. He was quite pleased with me too!! I didn't let him down, i manage to pass through the parallel parking.. =)) so happy, i thought i would be so blur (as usual) Although I passed but i did knock down 1 pole. I guess your be curious why i managed to get through even though i knocked down 1 pole. Well, instructor said that if i can park in without his guidance, he will pass me.. =)))

It's been such a warm weather.. cough and flu comes in naturally..
I need more vitamins!! yeah!

jAc

2009-08-11T09:49:00.002+08:00

There are times where i really dont understand what is happening. It seems that things happened so fast and its become complicated. At second thought, complications is define by human mindset. Thus it may not be what it seems to be. It was really confusing when you realised that everything came back to 1 reason which is you. Its the cause, its the reason and its the situation to it. Hiding is not a method, missing is also not the way. Being a baby, being pamper, being taken care off is happiness yes but well, it might also means being tied down. Be it what, i felt tied down, restricted though it wasn't really shown through apperance but internally it became a knot which everyone knows. Doesn't that means the same? yes, it does. As for now, it all need a new move to have a better life. I want to enjoy; play hard and study hard. Like what i've said, i can't promise anything be it my decision or choice. Its because i know i will defintely go someday, somewhere.

It's already the 15 week and means the UT3 is coming; which is just next week. I will have UT3 from 19th - 22th August. It also means vacation. Vacation include working back at parkroyal, attending korean language class, driving classes, a little night out and a trip to korea.

haha.. =)) lots of things in mind but i will keep the smile strong.

so hungry... want to eat before driving lesson later... =)))

jAc

2009-08-10T17:11:00.001+08:00

Its time to say goodbye..

Picture speaks a thousand words

2009-08-07T00:10:00.012+08:00

Ivy and Me =DD 25July 09.. love this pic!!

Beef raman at central =D.. (with my grp)

Cold toufu at central...=D (with my grp)

Fluffy with coco power with DAR at woodlands..

Triple CHeese Pizza (hawallian) with rapheal...

luncheon meat with egg noodles at xin wang.

again is fluffy at civic center with DAR and eugene..

Mocha "donut empire"

2009-07-30T11:54:00.004+08:00

I've been rather restless these days, i wonder why am i feeling so disturbed by the surrounding. Till now, i have no reason to my weird thinking and actions. Its been rather weird that I've been sleeping early these days, earlier than what i expected myself to sleep which is usually around 2-3am. Even though the case, I'm still tired. Is it the nightmare, dreams that keeping me occupied when I'm in bed. At times when i closes my eyes, i feel that there is someone else there moving, walking, talking or even hearing loud noises. There's even times where i felt a kind of struggle to open my eyes and a force is being pushed down. There's even times where i felt my heartbeat beating fast till its so difficult to even breathe; a type of tightness deep down. Is that asthma?

writing about all these can be makes one feeling down...

It's been a fun outing yesterday with my dearest friends!! =))) It's the first time I've been to ion orchard and its just opened recently. I went to check out the swarovski shop. woah! its really a nice and beautiful shop! of course, i did saw the necklace there too. "love earth" haa!! its $146 i think.. crazy man!! well, its still worth the price. Besides that, I went to sephora, the beauty authority. I'm really fascinated by their shapes of bottles for shampoo and shower bath. I have so many things which i want to buy from there; flashy eyeliner, brushes, make-up remover toner, eye shadows. Thinking about all these, i need a hair cut too!! =DD It seems that tons and tons of things i wanted but all these cost. Thus shall only buy those necessity items else i will go broke. (which i am already)

I'm glad that i have open up myself to people.

At least I'm not hiding away.

Friends rocks!!

2009-07-14T09:35:00.002+08:00

The clean, green way to cook an egg

Daniel HurstJune 24, 2009

A Brisbane inventor is hoping to harness the power of the ocean during a six-month trial of a floating wave generator starting in Moreton Bay next week.

The tests, which involve a 30-metre long plastic prototype capable of generating 300 watts of power each hour, could lead to the development of bigger wave-power stations suited to small coastal communities in the future.

The $200,000 device allows the waves that pass underneath to push air from one chamber into another. The movement of air drives a turbine to generate power.

The "Nautilus" prototype, designed by Brisbane inventor Ivan Voropaev and built with Queensland Government support, was lowered into the Brisbane River at Murarrie this morning.

It will be towed to an anchor point more than five kilometres east of Nudgee Beach where the air flow will be tested.

Mr Voropaev said the clean-and-green technology was still in its infancy so the prototype model would produce "a ridiculously small amount of energy".

"Probably (it will only be enough) to cook scrambled eggs and it will be the most expensive scrambled eggs ever," he told reporters at today's launch event.

But Mr Voropaev said a successful trial would lead to the development of larger, higher-output wave-power generators by local joint venture Advanced Wave Power.

While the plastic prototype was 30m x 1.5m x 1.5m, a commercial concrete version could be up to 10 times longer and 200 times wider.

Mr Voropaev predicted a 50m x 200m unit would produce 400 kilowatts an hour in Queensland, enough to power about 40 homes, while the same device would generate more than 2000 kilowatts in New Zealand as the waves were stronger.

Because the output would be relatively small, the technology would be best suited to small islands, marinas and ship terminals, which could potentially harness energy at half the price of diesel power, he said.

Energy Minister Stephen Robertson, who launched a renewable energy plan on Sunday, said the wave power system still had a "way to go" before it was commercially viable.
However, he said its potential was exciting.

"This is something that could deliver clean energy, zero-emissions energy, 24 hours a day, seven days a week," he told reporters.
The State Government provided 80 per cent of the prototype development costs with a $160,000 Queensland Sustainable Energy Innovation Fund Grant.

The Advanced Wave Power joint venture includes Mr Voropaev's business Ivec, builder Stella Marine Group and naval architect SeaLife Designs.

reference to: http://www.brisbanetimes.com.au/national/the-clean-green-way-to-cook-an-egg-20090624-cwd3.html

2009-07-13T10:43:00.003+08:00

whats above its my favourite!! Chicago cheesecake.. well, that's not really the best still. I love secret receipe cakes; white chocolate with nuts, marble cheesecake and more...

oh man, waking up so early in the morning yet i didn't turn up for class. It my Zzz monster that's holding me in the library till past 10am. Anyway, its going to be a busy day doing poster and reading up more information for the presentation this Saturday. Thus this won't really be a wasted session. i supposed i really need to reflect a little since i have not been myself lately. Addictions and cravings should be push on till a later dates.

jAc

2009-07-05T01:15:00.016+08:00

It's been so much fun!! Met up with xuan and qi xiang to celebrate xuan 20th birthday. Alright, it was rather last minute deciding to meet up but I'm glad that she is able to make it still. Else I'm going to have another post celebration for her. (remembering our post valentine and post exam =P) We met up at her place there and head down town for some shopping. Head on to vivo for lunch at white dog cafe. It was a nice view since we sat near the windows..

Besides that, i went down east coast for leen's 21st birthday celebration!! It's been nearly 2 years or more since we last met.. Happy birthday sis!!!! Have so much fun with them..

its a photo of me and xuan at the cab to vivo

ohh. we managed to get a better shot after some struggle with the camera

cream of chicken

Tomato with bread (xuan doesn't like healthy tomato)

Our feast began with main dishes..

Jac's chicken and cheese

Qi xiang's tender chicken leg..

xuan's deep fried marinated dory fish with tartar sauce

Guess what! we took a photo of qi xiang when his not looking.

yumm yumm food!! I love my fried food...

tasty soup we have...

Our photo before we head back...

jAc

I love my friends.... =DD

2009-06-30T23:41:00.003+08:00

Recycling station at nz airport.. isnt that cool!!

Its going to be SHOPPING tml!!!! Isn't that awesome! well, i shall take time to buy some gifts for my darlings..I guess this is only few days i'm going to take a break before the team meets up for poster discussion. *worried*

alright i shall say about what happened to me at 172 bus today...
as usual, i usually take 172 when I'm really sleepy and lazy cause i can doze on the bus back home. Thus as usual i fall asleep once I'm on the bus. I was awoke by this irritating noise hitting the window. I was shocked!! It's a BIG BIG BEE (BUG) It was so near me, all i did was to try to face my head away from it since i couldn't move around when there are so many people on the bus. After some struggle, the bee settled down at the corner beside the window which is still so near to me. I was so glad that it wasn't moving, and it is back to my resting period. Its really difficult to rest when you know that the bee is just behind you cause you never know when its going to attack again. well, the bee didn't stay for long, it decided to fly around again. There comes the panic again! This time it wasn't just me, the auntie beside me panic with me too but its seems that my reaction gave her so much laughter. (i have no idea why) She was laughing and panicking at the same time. At last we got off the bus, that's when i really have a great relieved. *phew* we chatted on our way to geh poh, that's when she told me that she's conducting sewing curtain class at the cc. so funny...

sigh sigh.. seriously the irritating fellow really irritates me today.

jAc
i love shopping

2009-06-28T21:07:00.002+08:00

It was li wen's 21st b'day yesterday. Happy birthday girl!! well, it started out alone in the crowd but surprisingly i saw some friends around. lucky me, or else i be feeling awkward. It was fun, met serene and there we took a photo of us holding hands together..

well, while i was walking at vivo, guess who i saw? I saw James!! (ex conservation Ig president).. hahax! Its been super long since i last see him. As usual, i kept asking him about the elephant shirt that i bought during the thai trip. We walked to powerhouse and i went to visit my friends. its fun, met lots of friends there!! well, looking forward for more meet ups... =DD

jAc

2009-06-27T16:30:00.003+08:00

It's time i should continue blogging. well, these few weeks i have been busy with my fyp report which i have finally submitted to my adviosr BUT who knows if she's going to send me back for editing.. Lets just cross fingers =X

Thanks Thanks Thanks!! I'm going to say 3 thanks to mr eugene!!! hahax! Awesome friend!! staying back till so late in school and helping me in my report!!! =DD xie xie ni

After fyp report, my busy schedules didnt just end.. Next is UTs, ce talks, presentation, camp. aww!! and my presentation day happen to fall on my camp days too.. but i will still attend the camp... =D It's awesome to hear that 8 students from conservation IG have been selected for the eco-camp.. I'm so excited! At second thoughts, would the camp days be shorten down due to the virus attack cases? (well, thats a maybe)

=DD i wonder how's mr curly been...

jAc

2009-06-07T17:49:00.003+08:00

Eco-minds youth forum: Substainable energy 2009

I love the time spend together with everyone!!!

2009-05-22T23:48:00.003+08:00

A beautiful sketch.. =)

It is a sketch that was unexpected from someone who appear to be rather humorous and funny at times but with a serious and focus mindset deep inside. He could be quite naggy at times but well, it great to have a friend that show concern for you..

THANKS!!

I'm off to Auckland from 23- 31 May. see ya!!

jAc

2009-05-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

A humble photo of me in peranakan costume.

haha! a joke with my friends today, i'm like the singapore flag since im on white top and i shall be the one holding the singapore flag on the ceremony. This would be what i would be wearing on the opening ceremony of the forum.

Time is running out, i just need to ensure that everything goes smooth..

but i still need to run for the week.. =P

jAc

2009-05-17T01:22:00.006+08:00

Food tasting at lot 1 food court..

It was such a disappointment, especially the Korean spicy rice cake. It was so expensive yet the portion was small, the rice cake was cold and the sauce wasn't spicy and thick. The fried dumpling wasn't that bad but it wasn't well cooked as the flour is quite thick at the sides. Besides that, its oily too.. =((

It was a happy day!! I went shopping! I guess shopping is a remedy for a broken heart. Although i came there without any thing in mind but as I walk pass the shops, buying seems to be necessity. It brings joy into me since i'm able to pamper myself this time. Sounds like a shopaholic..

jAc

2009-05-15T14:13:00.004+08:00

a photo taken at christchurch.

I can't explain how i felt right now, probably as lost as the sheep. I guess the only picture which i could relate would be christchurch. It's a place which consist of so much memories that i don't think i could just let them go in a short time. I know i know but i'm trying, i'm trying. It just come too unexpectedly. I never realised how deep i went and how much a blow for me this time. I always thought that you cared for at least but doubt so; it was me till the end.

i was such a fool.

big big fool..

jAc

2009-05-14T00:31:00.005+08:00

In nz, these ducks are considered as pest cause there were
just too much of them there. Thus they were used for shooting
during a festival.

sometimes i felt that i'm easily being seen through which can be both a good/bad thing. Shall i say that i'm like a duck cause there are so many people thus having a lesser one makes no difference. (what am i talking about, trying so hard to relate myself to a duck) I guess i'm undergoing an emotional breakdown for a moment. When you realised that no matter how far you want to be related, it seems so far from you. I'm trying to move up my steps but i know i never reached your pace. Is this just fate? (i just need to chill, shall chill after my trip)..

UT next week!!! I want to revise!!

=(( jAc

=)) i'm leaving next sat..

2009-05-12T00:07:00.001+08:00

Its such a beautiful house!! how i wish i can have a house here!! (Nz)

I can't deny that i don't miss the times there but its going to take time for me to let it go. In reality, it may seems impossible right now to earn the freedom to travel around; backpackking different towns or city but perhaps one day when i have earn myself the credit, its time for me to move on. I remember one of my travel mates who loves to travel around to different cities in the world; learning different cultures is one of her interest/passion.

I'm thankful!! I ever thought that i was in the deepest and darkest tunnel which i thought i would never get out. I have people lending me their hand to guide me through the dark times. To think that i'm not the kind that will tell jokes to people but yet i'm doing so now. Is this a change i'm going through right now? well, i think i've brighen up a lot these few days. I think that some people around me can sense that too, even mummy thinks that way too.. =)) "a good sign" There's another good sign coming up soon. "i didnt close my eyes although i wanted to but i just look down." Is that an improvement?

joke:
*right hand moves from right to left* means superman is here.
"left hand moves from left to right* means superman returns.
(its just some random thoughts in the morning and he took a whole day to think).. =))

FYP team!! Lets do our best to fulfill the requirements!!! All the best for tml's presentation!!

jAc

2009-05-11T00:21:00.004+08:00

-just another random photo taken at the washroom-

It was an enjoyable day out with my family and friends. In the morning, visited my cousin's place as it was her child's 1st month so she was having a lunch buffet around her area. I was really so overdress, thanks to my dearest. After that i head down to my grandma's place to celebrate "mother's day" with my relatives. I was really forgetful that i left my things home, have to trouble my dad to drive me around the malls to get it. Thanks dad!! but sorry dad, cause you have to drive me all the way down town which it wasn't planned to be. The moment which i think its special is when i see kasha's smile, laughter, tears when she was signing her marriage certificate. "tears" circulated in my eyes, i was really so happy for her. I guess i'm just too emotional towards it, since it was the first friend whom i've known who stepped into marriage life at this time. It was time to chill, went down for a couple of drinks with my friend. It's time for to take some time off from school life.

just some jokes to share..

1. when can you smell a carrot when there is no carrot related things around?

2. what animal can sticks on the wall?

(just in case i forget them)

jAc

2009-05-08T01:44:00.004+08:00

I always love this picture with my mum, taken at the railway station.

I was thinking if i ever going to continue writing my diary cause it may seems like a diffucult task for me to even flip open the book and pen them down. The reason is yet still the same. It seems that people around me are facing similar problems or related. Till the end, we'll find a way out.

The other day on the way home, trish message me. She told me that yue ping is pregnant and getting married soon!! I'm so happy for her even though it is kind of sudden. She didn't mention of getting married this year unless she have a child. Indeed and now its a dream come true for her. She's going to have her wedding reception at JB, i wonder if my parents allow me to travel there.

Kasha's ROM this sat!! =DD i really want to dance for her!! I will never forget that she's the one who taught me how to dance.

Mother's day is this sunday!! well, this year i have not been doing much for them. I want to get
something nice for her but i don't know what she wants; earings perhaps. let me brainstorm for a while..

and lastly, 23rd may coming soon but i have yet to buy my things... heex. shall get them real soon..

jAc

2009-04-26T20:29:00.002+08:00

Its been nearly a month since I've last updated..

It have been really a busy week since school started. Since my team was involved in IEP program, we all have to work extra hard! Through out my 10 weeks in BD, i enjoyed myself so much. The people in Eclipse department was so nice and helpful. I will never forget the line my supervisor always says, "your learning depends on how self-driven you are" That is more like the philosophy of the company and how things work there. Besides that, I took the opportunity to learn a little of cantonese since my colleauges spoke that all the time. At the very last day, its sad that we didnt manage to take a picture together cause running manufacturing line can be rather tedious as machines may be down at any time.

Thanks, i really enjoyed the fun nights.. =)) It opens me up to the society and the surrounding.. And i really like it..

May's schedule is really packed.. Datelines and more... =)) but fulfilling..

2009-03-29T01:47:00.003+08:00

Lets back to driving topic.

Last week i have a continuous of 3 driving lessons. And i have the same instructor, Mr chai for the three days. He must been very happy to have such a fun student like me! wahaha!! I was unwell during wed's lesson and yet he tried to tempt me to eat chocolate!! He failed even though he tried many times but he was nice to have gave me Chinese medicine which helps a lot. (良药苦口) From tasteless taste bud to bitter taste. Well, I have booked my next lessons, hopes that i can have Mr chai as my instructor.

Today i went for a SHOPPING SPREE with Trish!!

woah! I bought and spend so much!! Usually i would just get 2 piece but i got 4 today! of course, i love the dress!!! I still need a pair of grey heels to match along. Besides that, went down to cine leisure and bought Havaianas flip flops. Its on promotion now!! "Buy one get one free" Promotion ends by 31th March 09. Go grab one while stocks last. Location would be at hereen and cine leisure. =)) We shall save on food next week. And, we are going to the beach next week!! My dear Trish, no matter how much protection you tried to cover from the sun, you will still be tanned. (at least a little).

ahh.. i'm still running around but i guess ur having so much fun diving. =))

jAc

2009-03-23T22:41:00.005+08:00

I think i have the most enjoyable driving lesson tonight. The instructor was really humorous! well, it was partly my cause as i was a little forgetful in changing back to the 1st gear whenever the car stopped. I definitely remember it for tml's lesson. His favourite phase for the lesson, " stop at the line, don't bother to turn your head to look for the car cause you still have to stop." It was real fun when he realised that his already late in returning back to school. He said this, " don't worry, you just have to listen to me. You just have to follow my orders and you be back in no time." Immediately, i started driving and he say, " just stepped on the accelerator." He was holding on to the steering wheel and i thought that he be controlling it but i have to turn them instead. It was terrifying but a sign of relieved as i reach school.

OH ya, he was talking about some jokes which i couldn't understand..

Q:What is the color of Doreamon?
A: Red

Q: Doramon have how many siblings?
A: 26

Anyone understand why??

Definitely remember Mr Cai, the instructor who turns by using ONE hand; rotating as it turns.. sounds like fun?

I shall be a good girl and sleeps by 11.30pm on weekdays except friday.

2009-03-21T14:04:00.004+08:00

Industrial Experience programme (IEP) is coming to an end soon. I defintely miss my days back in BD. I really love the time spend with my colleagues from Eclispe. I think they are great, fun-loving people! It was them who brought colors into my work life there. My job scope can be rather dry cause i have to spend many hours facing the "blinking" laptop which may be causing an increase in my degrees. It can be rather interesting when you have a chance to handle the machines; procedures of startup, shut down, mold cleaning and etc. I guess i will be looking forward this coming monday when my supervisor says that he will let me do the mold cleaning. woah!! I've been waiting for so long cause this not a small machine! It's the biggest whereby you need to get in between the clamping unit to clean it. Although everything may seems fun and new to me, i really appreciate the opportunity to be able to handle it practically. I might be able to explain it theoretically but hands on may seems a little tricky. It seems like a challange and i love challenges!

IEP ends and school term starts..
There are simply no holidays!! but i did enjoy the time spend all these while.

School term starts- back to studies, IG, fyp, Nz trip, organising events.. (yeah! my event!! I NEED PPLE)
It should be a fun semester ahead!

of course, i'll still have you..

No weekdays, no weekends..
from smile to frown to depress.
but when it comes, i will have a BIG SMILE!

boy in
boy out.

girl in
girl out..

just have to find time for each other..

jAc

2009-02-15T18:30:00.006+08:00

"Valentine's day"

It was a very special night spend with a special someone.
It was a special valentine dinner at wild rocket, mount emily.
It was a short ride before reaching kylee.
It was sour and sweet having grapes and strawberry.
plus a glass of pineapple mix drink and the jazz music by the pianoist/singer.
It made the whole evening relaxing and tense-free.

thanks for the night..
always remember the ghostly topics in between..

shall go south nz again.. "christchurch ghost thrill"

2009-02-10T20:59:00.000+08:00

I thought that I would feel awkward knowing that this is a common place for all. I guess I was just awkward verbally. Well, it seems to come very naturally into myself. I supposed I didn’t even notice that there are people around. Through out, it was very relaxed and comfortable.

“Little own world”

Ha! This sound so magical, more like a fairytale story but it’s true.

I’m waiting for responses and it seems to be turning out well, especially from my loves ones, darlings and dear.

At second thought, does seeking approval a better choice?

And always Nz is the best!

2009-02-08T23:24:00.002+08:00

Jac misses her days in new zealand. It's been so much and i simply love the place there. Of course! I want to visit the Nz again or even stay there!!

Just one word, " relaxing"..

you can never feel the way back here. Its a complete different feeling.

"是上天安排我们在这时刻相遇在一起"

”只好，相信我们的缘分“

updating pics another time... ^^

working tml...

good nite all..

2009-01-25T17:34:00.003+08:00

Its a new year..

a new beginning..

a fresh new start..

2009-01-24T02:10:00.007+08:00

Today I'm going to share some photos taken aback...

Firstly, its the pizza lunch on monday, genetics lesson. We spend almost the whole of the break time at woodlands till we are late for third meeting...

Next we have a competition, seeing who is going to finish the last piece of pizza on our plate first...

guess who finish first??

Next would be the handicapped toilet affair.. we decided to skip off third meeting of genetics lessons. Its our eyeliner session..

Next would be the photos taken after we drawn our eyes.... ejia new hair look.. =))

Next would be hui min and me...

And we have fish and ej... =))) mesmerizing eyes!!!

Lets visit the zoo soon!!! =)) Sweet sweet days that we have..

jAc

2009-01-20T11:01:00.007+08:00

3 more school days and its HOLIDAY!! & 7 more days to Nz!!

Well, I'm quite excited; especially looking forward to my family's Nz trip. Its been many years since we as a family travel together. It is usually scattered; either my parents or my bro have their own personal/business trips. although its a bad year this time but many families still decided to travel overseas. after this trip, we have to save save save. =p we cant assume that we wont be affected. people believes that the effect of recession would only be more obvious during second half year. Retrenchment are like announcement that would come to anyone at anytime. Be prepared to hop to another industry where manpower are needed. The image that i visualize was when "ye wen" faces war and they need money and food to survive, all went and look for labourers task; just to earn that single bag of rice. It definitely wont be that bad here but there's always the minorities. That's why red cross plays a part in ensuring that people are living at the minimum comfort.

cny shopping!! lao xuan, when are you available to go shopping? I'm still waiting...

I did a little of shopping at ang mo kio hub. Its so big, seems that we can never walk finish if we walk into every single shops that we passed. This is the new cap that i bought.. ($22.90) This is the first time that i will choose this type of accessories. It may seems redundant but i will make it useful.. I also bought a cambell white tee ($19.90). Im going to aim for the pair of everlast shoes. (white with orange spots at $33.90)

I still need a pair of jeans to help me along with lab management next semester. I'm not going to keep wearing the track pants for lab lessons.

eye brown trimming kinda hurts in the beginning but gradually i doze off. The couch was too comfortable till my mind shut off, neglecting that i am having trimming session. Should start learning how to trim it myself and can save cost on it..

*blue* hair extension.. should i try? It look nice but will it look lian? even though its just one or a few more strands? or its just not me...

came home with shoulder aches. should i get a backpack? its also for the farm stay trip and when my shoulder hurts again.. hahax. ( excuses) *undecided*

2009-01-16T00:07:00.005+08:00

I'm really very very tired! Its not the work load that's driving me nuts but the fact when i do not know what's the objective of the whole project. When my members seems so informative and they could just tackle each question which seems to be another foreign language which i unheard. I wanted to start with a concept but its all blank. I have no idea on what's going on. When i heard them talking about this and that, I can only listen with much understanding. Shall i say that this group is more initiative and independent thus all of us just do things on their own. I guess I'm just the slower one who is still unsure till now. This really pulls down my confidence and my faith in it. Till now did i realised that i will be doing this project for the whole of 2 semester. I did have a second thought about this but its already confirmed thus there's no choice; i can't look back either. Depression? disappointed? depressed?

12.07am
jAc

Thanks rainbow!! recalling back, what you have said its quite true. It wasn't really what i want, its just influence that i didn't realised since i wasn't very initiative in the first place. well, its isn't a time to blame or look back thinking why and why this happen. It just a ranting which i feel that i need to remind myself. In between i did realised that when its so far. I do feel glad that even though we are not close physically but we are deep down inside. Its when i realised that this is my comfort zone.

15.13pm
jAc

2009-01-10T22:19:00.004+08:00

Its been a long tiring but meaningful day walking through blocks, door-to-door asking for donations while informing them about the rice project. Its good that everyone managed to complete the publicity for two days. =) went to take a look at school's open house. The moment we reach, a lot of dancers are on dance floor having pk. woah! Its cool! especially when this girl did a break dance. The crowd cheer loudly!

ohh well, its an enjoyment and disappointment.

There's this particular boy whom i remembered deeply, " what is this! This is rubbish!" come on, his just in his pri school and he said that. Another boy whom i overheard in the bus, his telling his mother that " 需要省的就要省，需要花的钱就花“. well, listening to this let me feel that there's always a mature opinion from the young..

2009-01-08T01:12:00.004+08:00

well.. i have to say that I'm much better already.. I'm not ill anymore...
Since i'm online, i might as well share this. There's this day when I'm super tired after class.. Mr cutie didn't come to school so i have to take the train back home myself.. I fall asleep while standing as i was leaning over. I didn't notice that there's someone standing opposite me. As i closes my eyes, i went into a dream and all i know is that I'm raising my hand waiting for a cab. As soon as my eyes was opened, my hands are raising towards the guy opposite.. its totally embarrassing. I just stood there, trying to bring my soul down to earth. hahax! hope that the guy didn't think that I was some crazy girl... its not the first time.. the other time, i have a hard bang on it as i doze off cause if not i will be a laughing stock if i have a great fall..

sorry ahgong, i fall asleep while i was on the bus.. wanted to continue chatting but I'm just too tired.. but i manage to wake up at the right bus stop and not back to the interchange again.. ^^

alright, good nite everyone..
hope to see cutie in school tml.. will he be coming.. but he have to take care of his grandpa? just hope that he comes...

jAc

Its great to see cutie in school but he said that his not coming tml, what a disappointment! but if he does, i wont be taking the same route as him tml... pls come to school, so i wont make a laughing stock out of myself on the train..

how nice of mummy to call me during break time to say " I MISS YOU". awww, how sweet of her. Well its isnt to me only but to daddy too.

it's been long since I've met up with dante. Always wanted to meet up but somehow we didnt. Its always not the right time to meet up cause everyone seems to be busy. i shall wear something appropriate cause it might seems to be very particular about image and impression. for the past few days, lessons have been DULL.. it's not as colorful as the rainbow but how can it happen.

The coporate video was really well done, the way they protray and the speech and expression was great! It does makes people feel that RP (realising potential) is the IDEAL school and indeed i do feel this way after my one year stay in this school. you will realise that there's more to learn than just the books and lecture, its self study, self learning and self accomplishment. Indeed worth while for the stay! Soon people wil believe that RP is the school for them. you will never realise til you been through it. try it! =)

2009-01-06T21:46:00.002+08:00

Alright everyone! I'm back! Since laptop is down i have not been updating much, thou there are so many things that I wanted to share of what i have been through this 3 weeks holidays...

I started my first week being a good girl cleaning up the room, clearing the closets, helping around the house; keeping it neat and tidy. My weekends remain the same, which is family bonding days.. The second week was better, since its the christmas week. Its my first night out at orchard during christmas eve, its so crowded with people holding on to the cans; shaking it, ready for 12am to come by. The path was too dangerous, worrying to be on the victims, we took a bus instead. walk into a pub and chill the night out with them, well things can be a little bore but once you are familarise, you have fun. On the weekends, went for a b'day dinner with a group of friends and stayed longer, since my curfew was shaken, its good to use it while you can. My first night at st.James was fun, though it wasnt what I expected. so what's expected? the music was great and active; keep us all so excited, especially iris. Thanks to the guys, we were walking well. That night was super tiring. It gives me body aches and high fever, was ill the next morning. Somehow I stil managed to get out of bed and took the train to sentosa; but slower. Before the journey, went to see the doctor. When the nurse took my temperature, she gave me that WA face, well its just 38.7.. right? Doctor dignosed its just some common flu..u sure? could it be _____?? nah!! Spend the night at Amara resort at sentosa. The medicine was good at the first go, gave me energy to run around the next moment. Who knows the next day it increases again. These kills my breakfast energy, went back to bed the next moment after some food, i guess it wasnt the right time to be ill.

ill..
ill..
ill..
ill..

it means home with tasteless food... just have to be well for the BBQ on friday..
I was slightly better on friday, at least the fever dropped.. ^^ good sign...

spend the next 2 nights at downtown east with my family and kor friends...^^
Its super fun with them...^^ update again.

2008-12-23T21:11:00.003+08:00

Since laptop been sent to acer for service, I haven been able to be online as often as before. Holidays would be coming to an end soon; around 2 weeks and will be back in school. sigh! Its really a big sigh cause there are tests. It's really important cause i haven been doing as expected. I just hope that I can pass through this hurdle.

CHRISTMAS is 2 days away... yeah!! i'm looking forward for this day though it wasn't planned..

all I want is to enjoy myself happily on this special day..

with family..

with friends..

with my dearest minnie and goofy..

=)

recieved a message from acer and laptop is repaired and ready for collection..
sigh.. Its the sign of troublesome cause i have to download files again..

i shall collect it after christmas... ^^ shall just enjoy now..

Happy Birthday Kor kor!

2008-12-07T23:40:00.005+08:00

LAPTOP crashed, it died on friday!!

Today is my brother's 23th birthday!! hahax!! Its wonderful cause we actually have a little surprise for him. I collaborated with yan ling jie to make it a success. Since his craving for ice-cream cake but swensen have closed in Jurong point thus its going to be a little difficult to get it. In order to surprise him, we bought him Haagen dazs strawberry and we actually told him. Actually there's a cake which is hiding in the fridge. Mummy said, "your acting very good huh". cause i waited for yan ling jie to bring kor away then i slip in the cake into the fridge. Before 12am, i have the cake prepared and after blowing off the candle which is on top of the ice cream, we surprise him with the real one. hahax!! Mummy say, " we did it!" cause he actually when to take a spoon to eat ice-cream.. HOHOHO!! Gotcha!!

Happy BIRTHDAY Kor kor!!

jac

2008-11-28T07:57:00.000+08:00

To start off the day with cheese bites is simply appetizing or shall i say fattening.

Have it began a trend to be absent from school on the day when my parents flew overseas? This happened last year on their trip to macau. It wasn't an intentional absence but somehow i was too lethargic when I couldn't sent off my parents at the airport. It have always been emotional when they travel overseas. It might just be a short depart but i still miss them. Besides that, it wasn't very short; its 9 days. It means that I have to handle the house chores, plants watering (there's lots of pots including my neighbours ones) and cleaning here and there.

Come to think about that milk chocolate nuts cake that my brother bought for me from secret reciepe. It's a exchange for me to go school myself. I was simply so relief when he said that his coming to my school when he return home in the afternoon, hope trash as he said that he couldn't as he needs to go else where. =( but its a good deal so its a smile instead. =)

love their cakes!!! =)

jAc

2008-11-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

I love my life now. I don't see the need to have any "changes". If you understand me, you should know what changes I'm talking about. The most joyful thing that happen to me have happened and I look forward for more surprises. I'm glad that I have people around me in my ups and downs. In return if you need a hand, I will always raise out my hand for you..

In the evening I met up with sha and I always looked forward meeting her. She brought a difference into my life that i will never ever forget. Its been 5 years and we are still staying connected, its a bliss. In my heart, i pray that things would be less bumpy for her. I'm delighted that she have found her partner for her life-time. When she probe me about my love but i say none. She asked why. I guess it wasn't the time yet. There's lots of things that I want to say to her. I'm going to have a running session this friday and we are meeting out next week.. yummy crab!! ( sugar crab?) heex.

That night when he called, he sound so dead as though he was sleeping. He said that he isnt happy but he didnt say the reason or he did. " I tell you already and you also dont believe" " you didnt call me"..
=(
what should i do? what shall i say? I rather stood there alone, you didnt have to do all these. Even if i will ever regret one day, its me that i will be upset. Sometimes, i just hope that some girl would come by and having you to be attracted over, at least she be there. I can't promise that i will be there when you need me. I didn't want to hurt you. Even though you always said that you are used to it, how sure can this be?

sometimes there's no reason for someone to love you..
sometimes there's no reason for someone to move away..
sometimes there's no reason for someone to hope that you are there..

sometimes i just hope that someone will be there to love you.
sometimes i just hope that someone will be there for you..
sometimes i just hope that someone will be there for you when you need..

can you forgive me for moving away..
can you forgive for not loving you..

can we just be like what we are last time?
At least we are happy that way...

jAc

Black Heels

2008-11-24T12:37:00.001+08:00

22th Nov 08

I was supposed to meet up zz at lavender at 8am in the morning to attend some adventure race but daddy says no. It immediately upset me as the reasons they gave me was totally ridiculous or 'no linked". Thus I woke up at around 12pm; still laying on my bed.

In the mid afternoon, meet up xuan and we went to far east to do some shopping. As always I wanted to tempt xuan on buying shoes but it didnt succeed. I bought a black heels (approx 3inch) for Sunday's dinner which goes with my dress. The urge of getting a dress remains, thus we went back the first dress shop that we liked. It was so crowded earlier on but i guess when the stocks disappeared from the tray, people started disappearing too. There was this purple dress that catches xuan eye but it was too transparent when she took a closer look. I wondered what must be wore.. The temptation never dies till we get our dress. Xuan took out this bright pink strip like dress and she said its nice but i guess im not used to bright colors. I bought a grey-orange dress and she pick a blue-something dress. I guess we have a similarity of having a slightly similar pattern(flower).

next time lets take a bus instead.. ^^

jAc

2008-11-24T12:02:00.002+08:00

Good friends = girl friends
Best friends = boy friends

21th Nov 08 ( 22th Nov 08 - XIN XIN b'day)

Immediately after class ended, I went off without remembering to do my evaluation, quiz and reflection journel. As I was early, I went to mc cafe to have a cup of latte and a piece of muffin. Aprox 5pm xuan came and we started writing and chat while waiting for the rest to come. while chatting, xuan look up and it was raphael standing there. Its such a coincidence! He sat down and we started suaning each other. when everyone started turning up, we went to pizza hut to have dinner. In meantime, we managed to get some time off to purchase a oreo cake for her and slipped it into pizza hut. After dinner, it was time to serve up the ice cream and the cake. Without ant notice, the staff holding on to the cake walking towards us while singing happy birthday song. I guess everyone is confused cause it seems that the cake is moving towards the wong direction but i was wrong; its correct.

Its fun when everyone is spending time together! We have even decided to meet up for the next birthday celebration which would be in december and January. Should we have a scrap book to put all the pictures together? Probably a few years later, when we read back the bits and pieces of notes we have written, its going to be funny. xuan shoud we start a book with full of pictures??

so whats the big good/best friends? Its the little joke that my friends are talking about. Ohh well, it all started with someone putting a pic there saying good friends. Actually I didnt notice it till xin said it.

Lets meet up and gossips about our lives again.. hahax. would that be a yearly routine ??

100th post!!! =) woah...

jAc

Happy Birthday Sabby!

2008-11-18T23:46:00.001+08:00

18November - Sabrina's 20th birthday!!!!!

dear Sabrina, hope you like this little surprise from us. when you suddenly appeared in front of us at book link, we were all in a shocked state; especially my face. I guess i was too stunt to react anything and my face have gave it all. In a way I did but somehow it wasn't that obvious too. The next moment that my instincts tell me is to run away first. hahax. While doing so, serene and Jason was laughing at me; could hear their laughter from behind. I think its too hilarious! The next plan we have was to surprise you but i guess no one expects you to surprise us instead with your loud "____" oops.. and everyone broke into laughter even though we held back. tada!! and there's your cake. That time while we were at causeway, remembering you telling me that you like it thus hope that its yummy. refreshing right! In the end, there was me to emphasis the two large candles...although someone is turning 21 earlier than us right? ^^ yupp! you should know who im talking about... oops... =X

These are some photos taken in process...

Thanks wei jie for sending me these sentimental songs.. ^^ BOA. I'm listening to it now..

I'm reminiscing about the past while this song, "winter love" is playing. even though I do not know the meaning of the song but its like a sad story. This song is like telling me that I have tried my best in it and things just didn't work out even though i still wish for the best.

while walking into shops at causeway point, I saw many dresses which i liked but i feel that im not really suitable for it. There's this one which i really like, its half black and half black grey. Should i get that kind of dress? at metro there's this dress which looks similar to xuan's dress but it have a different cutting. Its like bit flare at the bottom. I think im going to pamper myself this christmas. ohh ya, I saw this red shirt. I was thinking of getting it for christmas but would i ever want to do it. That is a question. It seems as though a reply would be given off, for what.. by that time, i be totally stunt. i think i shall say for you.. ^^

I need a jobbb..... need to earn some extra cash for shopping this christmas.. lets hope that i managed to get that job though it seems difficult but I just have to try.

jAc

Brenda's Birthday

2008-11-16T20:54:00.003+08:00

It was both a house warming and a birthday celebration for brenda sis. ^^ Its really fun and its a enjoyable steamboat session over at her house. other than that there were too much food, everything went smooth. hahax.. the most funny thing is when ah tay says that 大叔 have brought red wine and his waiting since Feb. It wasn't the wine that made me tired but its due to lack of sleep. hahax. Moreover, grandma wanted to play majong thus we stayed late to accompany her. For the whole night, i was like stoning while looking at the tiles.

In the morning, there's a tree planting session at admiralty park, it was a collaboration with Singapore technology. In total there were approximately of 1600 people involved in the tree planting. The whole thing is kind of draggy as the time stated was 7.15am but it started at 9am instead. alright, tree planting started and we only planted one tree each. =( on the way home, we walked through admiralty park and we managed to catch the whole family of monkeys...

shhh... do not scream and talked loudly when you are near the mangroves in admiralty park. ^^ you might be able to catch their movements..

jAc

2008-11-14T01:27:00.002+08:00

This is something that I have to post. It's been 6 years since I known you. Always remember how we started talking which is on irc, back in 2002. Somehow you became a person that would be always there for me. I dont know if this is coincidence or its fated to have known you. Thinking back the days when you told me not to take design and technology but I still took it in the end. You said that it was tough but I didn't believe and its really tough back in the old days. Whenever I have questions on math and sciences, you would be there to guide me slowly till I manage to get them into my mind. When I faces many problems, you became a listening ear that hears me through out my tough times. My tears, my joy and my happiness, you have seen it all. Thats because your willingly to open up to me. Till now, I still can remember your old house number which I would always call. The nights chatting with you was absoutely wonderful. You hardly say no to me, unless its really important.. As a friend, I feel honoured to have known you.. It be such a bigh difference without you being by my side.

Six years later, I met you unexpectedly at causeway point on 13th Nov 08, apromixately 8pm. It was a total surprise when i wanted to look at my friends and I saw someone familar. It was like a hi and bye, we didnt manage to talk to each other much as we are going on different directions. It surprises me when he said that his shy but somehow i believe his words cause he said that many times. I inititated meeting up but he decline, perhaps we all are worried that things might change; who knows. Somehow, if we could continue this mystery till the tenth year, I wonder how would it be like. By that time, we both probably be in universities or we be working.

ten years later, how would things be like? His voice would never change, neither himself.. His always the best guy friend I ever met and known for these years. Irc might be both a trouble or blessing. I guess its a blessing to me that we ever say Hi to each other. Fate brought us together and will cherish this friendship with my special friend, paul.

jAc

Thanks for being there for me for all these years..
and
hope that you find your partner too... ^^ remember to tell me...

2008-11-09T22:21:00.001+08:00

Today I went to east coast park with a group of residents living around my area. It was organised by the residential committee. On the way there, everyone is sleeping and on the way back home, everyone is sleeping too; right after the driver off the lights.. Ohh my, my headache didnt get any much better even though I'm home.

haha..daddy says that he wants to learn roller-blading.. *grin* heex..

jAc

2008-11-08T15:39:00.001+08:00

oops.. my dear xuan is not feeling well today thus she have to stay at home and sleep.... =( take good care of yourself lao xuan.. having sore throat means ur getting sick soon... so no more fried food already...hahax.. someone still say she wants to eat subway.. wait till your feeling much better, lets go eat subway alright? then we can order cream of broccoli.. Its nice!! hahax.. I tried it last night... have been watching winx club since last night and I've finished watching the 3rd season... I found the movie on youtube but its not in english version...

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING MANDY!!!!!! =) MUACKS
CAN U GUESS WHAT'S INSIDE?? ITS SOMETHING REDDD....

jAc

2008-11-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

oopz.. My lao xuan have been saying that " I'm in love!! "cause of my previous posts...
but actually... I'm having feelings for someone la... wahahahahah.. and thats you...=P
my post is not about guys actually and I thought that you should know who I'm talking about right??
cause xuan 董我的心.. don't start floating up again.. later you hit the ceiling again... but its true somehow.. =)

oohh ya... given the gift to my darling mandy le... and i hope the she likes it... hahax... cause I like it myself too...woooo... can u guess the next gift?? Its quite easy to guess if you actually know the application...

its reeeeddddd..... ^^

yeah!!! shopping spree tml...

2008-11-05T16:52:00.002+08:00

It's a quiet Wednesday but I'm glad that I have finished it.. This might not be much but its the best I can do for you.. Sometimes, I wonder why I can't stand on my own, usually need someone to be beside me, acknowledging me.. This is going to be tough for these few months..

but...

your in my heart...

and have to start revising my work already.. There's test tomorrow and friday.. Jia You peeps!! and my darlings..

jAc

2008-11-04T12:28:00.001+08:00

It's not getting out of my head still... =( Kevyyn said that I have i have to believe in myself and trust this special bonding that we once shared. Is it a barrier that I have created in between that made communication difficult? You have to be true to yourself and be honest towards each other? I feel that many things have been done, words have been passed and said but yet nothing seems to be reacting.

It's not that I didn't put in any effort. i feel that everyone is uncomfortable in a way too. Maybe? I do not know cause no one been true full to each other. Thinking back, what is the cause of all these? The only reply was that nothing actually happen, its all whats in your mind bugging you. At second thoughts, so what is the truth? There's no truth cause no one would either stand out to speak. What was left is just a simple silent.

Somehow i still want to move on, I've believe in it all these while. I'm just afraid that I might collaspe any time and things might turn out worst than expected.

我在想，你给我的承诺是单单是因为承诺？

还是有别的理由？

我给你的心意，是因为我在乎。。

好累。。。